Post by Simone on Aug 28, 2012 17:15:27 GMT -5
Perhaps, it was a bit more cowardly... But given how her conversation with Ulbrecht had gone, she thought that perhaps writing him would be better. At least in such a way, it gave her the time to think on her words. So as she sat at the small writing table in her chambers she pondered what she would say. Trying not to let his words to her ring in her head... For the last thing she needed, was to send him a missive smeared with tears. Dipping the Quill into the ink pot she started to write, and then paused as she thought.
When the missive was finished, she brought it down with her to the Great Hall and asked that it could be delivered to Captain Ulbrecht upon the Glori. A deep breath taken and let out slowly as she watched the messenger leave with it. Hoping that perhaps this time, her words would make much more sense so that he did not think it a negative thing.
The missive would read:
Dearest Ulbrecht,
Once more, I find myself wanting to apologize for hurting you. I fear I do not have a way with words. I just wanted to say that I was not trying to imply I wanted you differently. It is who you are, who you have been, that captured my heart to begin with. I would not ask you to do things differently, or against propriety. For if that were the case, none of this would truly matter. What I was attempting, and failed to say, was solely that... Yes, there are times I do so wish our circumstances were different... I mean that in a way that would enable us to be... more. However, I know that to change our circumstances is not something in our control... So for that, I will never fault you. For I know it is no more in your hands than it is mine. But I do not say that to imply that I wish you would act against what is proper. I would not ask that, nor want that... When I came here, I did not expect anything more than a place to stay, where I could be safe. I did not expect to lose my heart, or to have such returned in the same fashion... It is something I had never hoped for, nor ever expected, and is a gift I cherish. What I tried so hard to say is that I wish to spend more time with you... A time where we can relax and just enjoy one another's company. Be it on board the Glori, or a horseback ride, or a picnic... a walk in the gardens.. whichever activity.. Just time with you, when we do not have to hold our feelings so tightly.. Time we can just enjoy being around one another, and allow for our thoughts to calm away from thoughts of everything else happening around us for just a little while.
With All My Heart,
Simone
When the missive was finished, she brought it down with her to the Great Hall and asked that it could be delivered to Captain Ulbrecht upon the Glori. A deep breath taken and let out slowly as she watched the messenger leave with it. Hoping that perhaps this time, her words would make much more sense so that he did not think it a negative thing.
The missive would read:
Dearest Ulbrecht,
Once more, I find myself wanting to apologize for hurting you. I fear I do not have a way with words. I just wanted to say that I was not trying to imply I wanted you differently. It is who you are, who you have been, that captured my heart to begin with. I would not ask you to do things differently, or against propriety. For if that were the case, none of this would truly matter. What I was attempting, and failed to say, was solely that... Yes, there are times I do so wish our circumstances were different... I mean that in a way that would enable us to be... more. However, I know that to change our circumstances is not something in our control... So for that, I will never fault you. For I know it is no more in your hands than it is mine. But I do not say that to imply that I wish you would act against what is proper. I would not ask that, nor want that... When I came here, I did not expect anything more than a place to stay, where I could be safe. I did not expect to lose my heart, or to have such returned in the same fashion... It is something I had never hoped for, nor ever expected, and is a gift I cherish. What I tried so hard to say is that I wish to spend more time with you... A time where we can relax and just enjoy one another's company. Be it on board the Glori, or a horseback ride, or a picnic... a walk in the gardens.. whichever activity.. Just time with you, when we do not have to hold our feelings so tightly.. Time we can just enjoy being around one another, and allow for our thoughts to calm away from thoughts of everything else happening around us for just a little while.
With All My Heart,
Simone
